I missed this thing.
Merry Christmas!
Hope everyone is enjoying themselves! Stay tuned for a new layout, new content, etc., coming up in 2010.
Maybe.
Where has the time gone?
I can’t believe it’s almost Christmas already, and that my school break begins tomorrow at 3:35PM. It’s unreal how fast the time goes when you’re constantly busy with school, work and friends. I haven’t given a second thought into shopping yet, which is definitely a huge mistake on my behalf. I’ll have to try and get that done before the major holiday festivities begin, but with the mall being so packed and me working everyday it’s really hard to find the time, patience and energy to stand in a line for 30 minutes, only to walk out with one item and a diminishing bank account balance.
Can you say run on sentence?
All is well here though, and I’m truly looking forward to the coming days and the new year, which is definitely a first for me. I like it.
Quitting: The good, bad & ugly.
I’m in the ‘process’ of quitting smoking cigarettes. I’ve smoked for just a little over a year and a half, and the addiction is still going very strong, unfortunately. Over the past few months of my quitting phase I’ve come to realize that while putting a stop to a bad habit is, generally speaking, a good thing, it also has it’s negative sides. During this process, I’ve come to realize that the negatives have outweighed the good.
It sucks.
The Good
- Health. Health is very important to me, especially when it comes to my eating and exercise habits. Smoking and drinking are my only two vices that are in anyway counterproductive to my lifestyle choice. It’s inevitable, smoking is bad for you – no good will ever come from it. I’m killing myself quickly. If I quit, there is a better chance of me having another heart attack, getting cancer, or any other damaging health side effects.
- Smell. Honestly, I worry more about this than I do my health. I hate smelling like cigarettes and I will go out of my way and do the most ridiculous things so I don’t have to smell like it, while still enjoying a quick cigarette. Not having to think about this would be fabulous.
- Teeth. I love my teeth. After a year and a half of braces, my teeth are amazing. They’re still fairly white too, and I’d like to keep them that way. At this rate, that won’t be happening.
The Bad
- Mood. If I haven’t had a smoke, don’t talk to me. I don’t say this to be rude, but I’ll bite your head off if you say anything that is even a tad stupid. It’s not fair to you, and it’s in no way right for me to do this, but I have no control over it. I will lose my mind if I have to go more than 4 hours without a smoke, especially if I haven’t eaten.
- Appetite. If I don’t smoke, I feel sick. If I feel sick, I don’t eat. If I don’t eat, I lose weight… quickly. This is frightening for me, only because I once had an issue with food and the amount I would or would not eat… I’m sure you get the gist of this without me saying it. I don’t like waking up every morning feeling sick, and having to cancel plans because I don’t feel well enough, or not doing my best work because my body is lacking nicotine.
The Ugly
- The worst part about quitting is the money. Yes, cigarettes are expensive. You know what’s more expensive than a pack of smokes? Nicorette gum and the patch. These seem like my only final alternative to quitting because I cannot for the life of me quit cold turkey, or slowly cut back each day. It. Does. Not. Work. I will always convince myself to buy that other pack.
I’m not really sure where to go from here, except for outside to have another smoke.
Blogging: No Effort Required
This title is fairly misleading, and I apologize for that, but what I mean to talk about is blogging, and how it’s an activity that shouldn’t take you a whole lot of effort to complete. I’m not saying don’t put any time into your writing, because I absolutely think you should do whatever it is your doing to the best of your abilities, but don’t make it a hassle. Don’t make blogging something you force yourself to do every once in awhile to keep your visitors satisfied. Don’t make blogging into something for anyone but you – don’t do it if you don’t feel like it. If you don’t enjoy it, don’t ruin writing for yourself.
A blog is a creative outlet, nothing more, nothing less. It’s a creative outlet for the writer, and possibly an entertaining read for the occasional visitor, regular or not. It’s not a chore, it’s not school work, it’s not mandatory. A blog is something you work on, contribute to, etc., when you’re done what you have to do – when you want to relax.
Stop ruining it for yourself. This is all I see nowadays, and I hate it.